I really don't know if i liked her so much or if i had fallen in love with her.. I had just met her two or three times personally before.. Have spoken to her over phone on a few occasions but nothing so intimate that i could end up getting swept off my feet.. All i got in return during my conversations was being called "The biggest flirt she'd ever encountered", which i personally don't think i am :)
But there was something about her.. Probably the fact that she was a malayali.. This factor according to me was the main culprit.. For the first time in my life.. I had thought about marriage.. I had seen a girl now in my life, whom i could probably go ahead and get married to. Never felt this feeling for anyone before her. I really dont know how to put it all together cos i am pretty sure i was never really in love with her, but i did want to marry her if that could be made a reality.
Eventually when i did tell her that i want to marry her, she just laughed it off as a joke :( I asked her not to jump the gun and get married immediately and pleaded to give me a year or two's time. But all i could hear at the other end of the phone is laughter. Nobody really takes me seriously when i tell them i like them, do they??
Those few moments together when i gave her a red rose, shared a glass of red wine and dedicated "Nothing's gonna change my love for u" for her will remain the most memorable moment i spent with her and the very last time i met her :)
And after a month or two i get a call from her telling she's getting married to this so and so malayali bugger from KERALA(somehow cant stand these kerala born and bought up malayali GUYS now settled in bangalore. Come on dude, bangalore gals just dont suit ur taste and lifestyle. When are u ever gonna realize that and start marrying gals from kerala??).
No i did not get depressed when i heard that. For a matter of fact it didnt even take a few days for me to get over her and move on in life. But i just could not take myself to go and attend her wedding and have to look at that damning sight of someone else in a position where you wanted to be in. But i made that clear to her when she invited me for her wedding. She thought i was acting cocky but when are these gals ever gonna understand that we guys too have a heart and that heart too has feelings ;)
So the first girl whom Sandy really thought about marrying will be officially someone else's wife today. So all the very best to the two of you and wishing you a happy married life(Honestly after feedback from all my dear and near ones i've come to the conclusion that he actually looks like your younger brother when both of u stand together or probably i am just jealous)
As they say, just before my last few moments in this world.. When my entire life flashes in front of me.. Among all the happiness and sorrow and family and friends and wife and kids and football and basketball and trophies and accolades and success and failures, there probably will be a split second where your image too flashes by.. But mind you.. Just a split second!
Friday, December 11, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Nokia N79 :)
Got my new N79 a week ago :) By new this time i mean it is brand new, unlike the three month old "new phone" i bought the last time around. Has almost all the features of my previous N82 except for the Xenon flash. Has a 5MP camera, a good music player with an FM transmitter, 4GB memory card with the phone with an additional 4GB card with preloaded movies free, GPS with the nokia maps and three months of voice guided service free, n-gage games and loads of other features. Also has local language messaging, Oxford dictionary and an SMS reader. Sleeker and lighter than the 82 and also has a better look . Came with two additional changable panels also. All in all a good bargain for 15k and after i somehow managed to get 5.4k for my water-logged always screwed N82, this new phone was a super deal for 9k after i got a further 5% discount on my card. A bit delicate and needs to be handled with care. Other than that, really starting to love the phone. Guess rain gods also cannot disrupt our lives this time, since i've completely insured it against all sorts of damages :P Looking forward to a healthy longlasting realtionship with my new partner in crime ;)For complete specification please visit:
http://www.nokia.co.in/find-products/products/nokia-n79/tech-specs
http://www.gsmarena.com/nokia_n79-2497.php
http://www.fonearena.com/nokia-n79_712.html
Monday, August 17, 2009
The Season Ahead - A Preview :)
An amazing start to this season for my team. Never did i think that they'll beat Everton, that too away from home so convincingly. 6-1 is a super scoreline to start any season for any team. Loved the way they played. Each individual showed a lot more maturity than the previous year. They looked stronger and played better as a team. 4-3-3 seems to be working just fine for us. Somehow when all the odds are against us and critics lamblasting you all the away, Arsene somehow manages to prove that wrong. Playing beautiful football always, treat to watch them play even for every neutral fan. The only thing missing is silverware, hope i don have to wait too long for that now. Keeping fingers crossed. If this form does continue there will be no stopping Arsenal. I just hope they sustain the momentum they've achieved after this match and keep going from strength to strength. They played brilliantly in the first half of 2007-08 season when the title was within their reach and threw it all away in the second half of the season. They played pathetic in the first half of 2008-09 season, but finished the season off with a 21 match unbeaten streak. Just wish the 2009-10 season is lucky for us and we perform both before and after christmas :) Then its gonna be an absolute carnival at the emirates come may ;)
Coming to the team now. There is a lot of talk about Arsene not buying new EXPERIENCED players even though he has loads of money now after selling two "big" players for a massive profit. But after what we saw in the pre season and on the first week, they look pretty good. But reinforcements in certain areas might probably add more depth to the squad and make what could be a good season into a great season. Almunia to me looks good on goal. No complaints. Clichy and Sagna to me are perfect as full backs with Eboue, Traore, Gibbs and Silvestre(i am still personally not impressed by him) as backups. Galls and Vermaelen look good in defence and what is required out of them is consistantly good performances. The one thing they lack is height. So get Hangeland from fulham after selling Senderos to Everton :)
Midfield and the attack is still our strength. We will continue to score and entertain the crowd whoever our opponents are. Fab looked fabolous in the opening game. Loved his tribute to Daniel Jarque after he scored. Still wondering how footballers who are so fit, suffer heart attaks at the age of only 26. Song seems an immensely improved player. Denilson still for me is the weak link. Get Patric Vieira to guide the kids and we might just become unplayable against ;) But i dont think that transfet will come through, would have loved to see Vieira again at Arsenal though. Then there are Nasri, Diaby, Rosicky, Walcott, Ramsey and a host of young kids who impressed like Wilshire and Merida.
Looks a very good midfield to me. Attack looks strong too. They seem to be taking their chances, trying long range shots, putting lots of crosses into the box and basically score goals from all parts of the field rather than trying to walk the ball into the goal. Bendtner looks vastly improved from last season and if he keeps his head a bit and plays smart football, he'l definitely be a player to watch out for. Van persie is excellent on his days and ordinary the others. He's coming off a wonderful last season and you can expect lots of fireworks from him. And Arshiavin to me is truly worldclass. The performance last season in Anfield proved that and he sure will be a wizard with the ball creating numerous chances and scoring a lot of goals. We have Eduardo back and when he's back to full fitness i bet there is no better finisher in EPL than him. He was true class untill that horific tackle from taylor broke his leg. Would love to see him play a lot more and score plenty this season :) And to finish it all there's Vela who also seems a bundle of talent waiting to explode any minute at the biggest stage.
And now talking about the departures from emirates this season. Was slightly disappointed when Toure left cos he was the last of the invincibles left and he was a great player for us for seven seasons. But he too was past his prime and wanted to go away, so 16 million for him was a good piece of business. But what according to me was a better piece of business by Wenger was getting 25 million for Abebayor. I so hate him these days. Started to hate him when he made that famous statement a year back that "if i have to play like henry, pay me like henry". Son, please do not dare compare yourself with King Henry, you are just plain insulting him cos if you even play 20 seasons with arsenal you wont do half as much as henry did for us. I know you were a key player to us till a year back, but after what you showed us on the pitch the whole of last season with your lack of interest or rather laziness and how you wanted to run off to any other club that pays you more, we just dont want you here anymore. There wont be a single fan all over the world unhappy about your departure from the club. And it was only you who bought about this situation to yourself. You wanted more money and now you've got it. Now i shall wait and watch what you gonna do at Man City cos i so bloody wanna see you flop that bad that Mark Hughes finally loans you off to some Championship club :P You know wat... We would never have scored six goals had you been playing up front for us against Everton. So thanks a ton for leaving. God bless you.
All in all looks a promising start to a promising season. Just hoping i will be rejoicing nine months from now, reading this blog. The only thing thats the biggest worry for arsenal is INJURIES. Somehow if the playes manage to finish the seasn without major injuries at crucial times, i am so sure we will be the favourites to win the title. I just hope the injury curse just goes away this season cos i really badly want the title this season. And as i type this post, just read a report that Fabregas, Denilson, Sagna and Walcott are all injured ahead of our crucial Champions league qualifier against Celtic tomorrow :( Somehow luck always deserts us, and i so wish that lady luck finally smiles on us this season :)
In Arsene we trust. Gunner for life :)
Coming to the team now. There is a lot of talk about Arsene not buying new EXPERIENCED players even though he has loads of money now after selling two "big" players for a massive profit. But after what we saw in the pre season and on the first week, they look pretty good. But reinforcements in certain areas might probably add more depth to the squad and make what could be a good season into a great season. Almunia to me looks good on goal. No complaints. Clichy and Sagna to me are perfect as full backs with Eboue, Traore, Gibbs and Silvestre(i am still personally not impressed by him) as backups. Galls and Vermaelen look good in defence and what is required out of them is consistantly good performances. The one thing they lack is height. So get Hangeland from fulham after selling Senderos to Everton :)
Midfield and the attack is still our strength. We will continue to score and entertain the crowd whoever our opponents are. Fab looked fabolous in the opening game. Loved his tribute to Daniel Jarque after he scored. Still wondering how footballers who are so fit, suffer heart attaks at the age of only 26. Song seems an immensely improved player. Denilson still for me is the weak link. Get Patric Vieira to guide the kids and we might just become unplayable against ;) But i dont think that transfet will come through, would have loved to see Vieira again at Arsenal though. Then there are Nasri, Diaby, Rosicky, Walcott, Ramsey and a host of young kids who impressed like Wilshire and Merida.
Looks a very good midfield to me. Attack looks strong too. They seem to be taking their chances, trying long range shots, putting lots of crosses into the box and basically score goals from all parts of the field rather than trying to walk the ball into the goal. Bendtner looks vastly improved from last season and if he keeps his head a bit and plays smart football, he'l definitely be a player to watch out for. Van persie is excellent on his days and ordinary the others. He's coming off a wonderful last season and you can expect lots of fireworks from him. And Arshiavin to me is truly worldclass. The performance last season in Anfield proved that and he sure will be a wizard with the ball creating numerous chances and scoring a lot of goals. We have Eduardo back and when he's back to full fitness i bet there is no better finisher in EPL than him. He was true class untill that horific tackle from taylor broke his leg. Would love to see him play a lot more and score plenty this season :) And to finish it all there's Vela who also seems a bundle of talent waiting to explode any minute at the biggest stage.
And now talking about the departures from emirates this season. Was slightly disappointed when Toure left cos he was the last of the invincibles left and he was a great player for us for seven seasons. But he too was past his prime and wanted to go away, so 16 million for him was a good piece of business. But what according to me was a better piece of business by Wenger was getting 25 million for Abebayor. I so hate him these days. Started to hate him when he made that famous statement a year back that "if i have to play like henry, pay me like henry". Son, please do not dare compare yourself with King Henry, you are just plain insulting him cos if you even play 20 seasons with arsenal you wont do half as much as henry did for us. I know you were a key player to us till a year back, but after what you showed us on the pitch the whole of last season with your lack of interest or rather laziness and how you wanted to run off to any other club that pays you more, we just dont want you here anymore. There wont be a single fan all over the world unhappy about your departure from the club. And it was only you who bought about this situation to yourself. You wanted more money and now you've got it. Now i shall wait and watch what you gonna do at Man City cos i so bloody wanna see you flop that bad that Mark Hughes finally loans you off to some Championship club :P You know wat... We would never have scored six goals had you been playing up front for us against Everton. So thanks a ton for leaving. God bless you.
All in all looks a promising start to a promising season. Just hoping i will be rejoicing nine months from now, reading this blog. The only thing thats the biggest worry for arsenal is INJURIES. Somehow if the playes manage to finish the seasn without major injuries at crucial times, i am so sure we will be the favourites to win the title. I just hope the injury curse just goes away this season cos i really badly want the title this season. And as i type this post, just read a report that Fabregas, Denilson, Sagna and Walcott are all injured ahead of our crucial Champions league qualifier against Celtic tomorrow :( Somehow luck always deserts us, and i so wish that lady luck finally smiles on us this season :)
In Arsene we trust. Gunner for life :)
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
High time you wake up!!!
I think the title sums it all. Have sat on my ass n screwed around long enough. All I've done is take two steps back for every step forward that I've taken in the last two years. Should i give CAT?? Should i get into sports management?? Should i slit my own throat?? But wat the fuck.. how can i do all this.. I have an education loan to pay off na.. How can i even think of doing anything else until that is done with... Now i say.. Balls to that education loan... Think of something quick and make something happen, rather than sit and talk n talk n talk(just like i am doing in this post, all charged up at 2 in the nite one day and two days later everything is conveniently forgotten)... You can sit and plan about your future for the rest of your life, but until you start actually doing anything about it nothing is really gonna happen. I bloody really hate it these days.. Cant make yourself focus on a single thing in life... and when u reach that point, it really really gets frustrating. Sometimes you think atleast the company should have fired you from the job, atleast then will you do something seriously. But again if that happens, who's gonna give you that 20,000 bucks that you so rely on these days. man... The day you make yourself understand that probably to gain something and make some progress to your presently stagnant life, you gotta make some sacrifices. Only then will you make your first positive step forward. The faster that day arrives, the better. Untill then the frustrating life will continue.............
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Two years of joblessness, nevertheless an enjoyable experience...
A post by a very similar name was supposed to be written exactly a year back on this very day. But it still remains unfinished. Will update everything once and for all here. Probably in my next post.
Completed two years of doing nothing in Capgemini today. 18th June 2007 it was, our first day at CG. Have hardly learn't anything technically till date. Have been billable for 125 days outta a maximum of 730 days :)
But have earned around 5lakh till date for doing nothing but participate in all the extra activities at work, play all possible sports for office and spend most of your time in the pantry and cafeteria coupled with some internal initiatives as an anjaan activity to keep us safe and make us look busy and occupied.
But all in all its been an awesome experience. Made a lot of good friends. The birth of the RODHNEY GROUP and SAP-UNITED and the unending Rodhney's of the boys. Truly memorable two years :)
Going to celebrate all this in Club Cabana today. Should be a fun filled day. Wanna celebrate our second anniversary with a bang.
Will update everything that happened there and my two years of joblessness in detail in the next post. Pretty late now. gotta wake up early n leave tomo... so till then.. Alvida...
And Congratulations Sandeep Balan, for surviving these two years in IT :) Dont forget though, that this is not exactly the right place for you to spend the rest of your life :)
Completed two years of doing nothing in Capgemini today. 18th June 2007 it was, our first day at CG. Have hardly learn't anything technically till date. Have been billable for 125 days outta a maximum of 730 days :)
But have earned around 5lakh till date for doing nothing but participate in all the extra activities at work, play all possible sports for office and spend most of your time in the pantry and cafeteria coupled with some internal initiatives as an anjaan activity to keep us safe and make us look busy and occupied.
But all in all its been an awesome experience. Made a lot of good friends. The birth of the RODHNEY GROUP and SAP-UNITED and the unending Rodhney's of the boys. Truly memorable two years :)
Going to celebrate all this in Club Cabana today. Should be a fun filled day. Wanna celebrate our second anniversary with a bang.
Will update everything that happened there and my two years of joblessness in detail in the next post. Pretty late now. gotta wake up early n leave tomo... so till then.. Alvida...
And Congratulations Sandeep Balan, for surviving these two years in IT :) Dont forget though, that this is not exactly the right place for you to spend the rest of your life :)
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
And the sorry story continues....
Another trophyless season... another young team... lots of promise but no end result...
Please Mr Arsene, let go your ego. Get some experience in... We might still not win trophies, but we wont go outta tournaments without a fight then... I want my invincibles back...
Miss watching you guys play.. you were the best Arsenal team ever to play...
Jens Lehmann, Ashley Cole, Sol Campbell, Kolo Toure, Lauren, Patrick Viera, Gilberto Silva, Robert Pires, Fredrik Ljungberg, Dennis Bergkamp and Thierry Henry :)
You guys were indeed the INVINCIBLES :)
Please Mr Arsene, let go your ego. Get some experience in... We might still not win trophies, but we wont go outta tournaments without a fight then... I want my invincibles back...
Miss watching you guys play.. you were the best Arsenal team ever to play...
Jens Lehmann, Ashley Cole, Sol Campbell, Kolo Toure, Lauren, Patrick Viera, Gilberto Silva, Robert Pires, Fredrik Ljungberg, Dennis Bergkamp and Thierry Henry :)
You guys were indeed the INVINCIBLES :)
Saturday, February 7, 2009
BasketBall Diaries - A Prologue
Year 1996: Sandy gets married to a malyali gal his parents find for him :) The wedding reception becomes the first one to be held at DRDO Open air theater. The ceremony was split into two days just to accommodate the mad rush of people just like how we used to have super hit movies played for two consecutive days so that everyone gets to watch the movie. The first day for family and the second for friends. There were posters all over Drdo with an "All are Invited" tag attached ;) This wedding seemed like a fairytale:) ok ok.. now lets get back to reality...
Year 1998: After two years of marriage the Sandy's have their first child, a cute little boy. They name him Baskey(weird name huh??). Once Baskey came into their life, the Sandy's lives changed for the good. Sandy so loved Baskey that he could just not stay away from Baskey even for a few minutes. Four years passed by with Sandy and Baskey falling so much in love with each other that they could never be separated. Then there was a twist in their tale...
Year 2002: The Sandy's now have their second child again a baby boy. The parents are overwhelmed with joy. Sandy names him "Footie"(now the name might start sounding familiar na??). As Footie grew up, Sandy now started to give more attention to Footie than Baskey. Never had Sandy imagined before that he could actually give someone else more preference than his dear Baskey. But thats what was happening. Footie was getting most of Sandy's love and affection. Sandy made sure he didnt make Baskey feel left out all this while. Nevertheless the truth was that Sandy knew deep inside that his love for Footie is overshadowing his love for dear Baskey. How much ever he wanted to, he could never do justice to Baskey since he spent most of his time with Footie. Slowly slowly Baskey was moving out of Sandy's life because Footie had made such a big impact in Sandy's life and they almost had become inseperable. For the next SIX years Baskey took the back seat in Sandy's life and let Footie hog all the limelight. Baskey was never completely out of the picture these six years but never for once did Baskey get the first priority ahead of Footie. Sandy always felt guilty of ignoring Baskey even though he loved him so much, but a choice had to be made then and Footie was the choice he made. For Six years Baskey patiently waited, not once complaining, not once feeling jealous, not once fighting with Footie. He knew someday Sandy will rediscover his love for him.
Year 2009: Sandy still does not have answers for how? why? he got back to Baskey. Probably it was just that he started spending a little more time with Baskey now. He then started to slowly realize how big a part of his life Baskey once was and how he truly missed Baskey all these years when he was right in front of his eyes, but he could never really make it count. Footie also had grown older now and was old enough to manage himself. So as of today Sandy had rediscovered his love for Baskey. Whats going to happen from here on is anybody's guess :)
Sandy realized that these were just phases of life, where he never could actually give equal attention and importance to two people how ever much he loved and cared for them. So he needed to make his choices and he definitely is not regretting it. At the end of the day if he's able to spend enough time with his loved once even though he has to divide his time between them, he still is content and happy. And he will remain a passionate father ;)
Year 1998: After two years of marriage the Sandy's have their first child, a cute little boy. They name him Baskey(weird name huh??). Once Baskey came into their life, the Sandy's lives changed for the good. Sandy so loved Baskey that he could just not stay away from Baskey even for a few minutes. Four years passed by with Sandy and Baskey falling so much in love with each other that they could never be separated. Then there was a twist in their tale...
Year 2002: The Sandy's now have their second child again a baby boy. The parents are overwhelmed with joy. Sandy names him "Footie"(now the name might start sounding familiar na??). As Footie grew up, Sandy now started to give more attention to Footie than Baskey. Never had Sandy imagined before that he could actually give someone else more preference than his dear Baskey. But thats what was happening. Footie was getting most of Sandy's love and affection. Sandy made sure he didnt make Baskey feel left out all this while. Nevertheless the truth was that Sandy knew deep inside that his love for Footie is overshadowing his love for dear Baskey. How much ever he wanted to, he could never do justice to Baskey since he spent most of his time with Footie. Slowly slowly Baskey was moving out of Sandy's life because Footie had made such a big impact in Sandy's life and they almost had become inseperable. For the next SIX years Baskey took the back seat in Sandy's life and let Footie hog all the limelight. Baskey was never completely out of the picture these six years but never for once did Baskey get the first priority ahead of Footie. Sandy always felt guilty of ignoring Baskey even though he loved him so much, but a choice had to be made then and Footie was the choice he made. For Six years Baskey patiently waited, not once complaining, not once feeling jealous, not once fighting with Footie. He knew someday Sandy will rediscover his love for him.
Year 2009: Sandy still does not have answers for how? why? he got back to Baskey. Probably it was just that he started spending a little more time with Baskey now. He then started to slowly realize how big a part of his life Baskey once was and how he truly missed Baskey all these years when he was right in front of his eyes, but he could never really make it count. Footie also had grown older now and was old enough to manage himself. So as of today Sandy had rediscovered his love for Baskey. Whats going to happen from here on is anybody's guess :)
Sandy realized that these were just phases of life, where he never could actually give equal attention and importance to two people how ever much he loved and cared for them. So he needed to make his choices and he definitely is not regretting it. At the end of the day if he's able to spend enough time with his loved once even though he has to divide his time between them, he still is content and happy. And he will remain a passionate father ;)
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