High time you wake up!!!

I think the title sums it all. Have sat on my ass n screwed around long enough. All I've done is take two steps back for every step forward that I've taken in the last two years. Should i give CAT?? Should i get into sports management?? Should i slit my own throat?? But wat the fuck.. how can i do all this.. I have an education loan to pay off na.. How can i even think of doing anything else until that is done with... Now i say.. Balls to that education loan... Think of something quick and make something happen, rather than sit and talk n talk n talk(just like i am doing in this post, all charged up at 2 in the nite one day and two days later everything is conveniently forgotten)... You can sit and plan about your future for the rest of your life, but until you start actually doing anything about it nothing is really gonna happen. I bloody really hate it these days.. Cant make yourself focus on a single thing in life... and when u reach that point, it really really gets frustrating. Sometimes you think atleast the company should have fired you from the job, atleast then will you do something seriously. But again if that happens, who's gonna give you that 20,000 bucks that you so rely on these days. man... The day you make yourself understand that probably to gain something and make some progress to your presently stagnant life, you gotta make some sacrifices. Only then will you make your first positive step forward. The faster that day arrives, the better. Untill then the frustrating life will continue.............